back to reality

finished my exam today.
not sure if i will pass, but did my best d.
to be honest, i didn't really prepare well for this exam. if i had prepared well, i would have done better.
but, the exam has finished, so i can just hope the best for my results.

going back to reality tomorrow.
going to start back my working life the day after tomorrow, so have to pack my feelings as well to get back to work.
all those files... all those queries... aarrgghh....
*sigh*

ok.. i will see it this way..
try to work hard and learn as much as i can..
and maybe get another long break again when there is not so much work to do?
^^

Relationships

Saw this shared post in facebook, which i think worth sharing.

' Relationships are harder now because conversation became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages, sex became easy, the word 'LOVE' is used out of context, insecurities became a way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust is hard to come by, being hurt became natural & leaving became the only option.'

Sad, but true.

Back to blogging

It's been such a long time since i updated my blog. I have wanted to blog so much but due to all the unforeseen circumstances, my wish was not granted.
Starting with my working life, which is getting more and more busy, which is also a norm for audit life. =( Sad to say so. But trying my very best to get the one year experience, and maybe try another job after that? Who knows what will i decide when the time comes?
Continue with the relationship, which been through so many things within the few months since i came back from the UK and since i started working. Trying very hard to balance my life with work, family and relationship. Learning to get use to my working life, to get use to not having all those small little habits that i love doing them during my free time, which i don't even have much free time since i started working, which is a sad thing to say, i even have to work during weekends. Poor me. =(
Trying very hard to be the same old me, but something inside me is not right. It's not that i don't want to, it's just that sometimes when things did happened, our mindset just changed, and it's not easy to be changed back. It's just like the glass that was broken, even if it is glued again, it is still a broken glass. I once felt myself was broken into pieces, tried very hard to glue myself back into one piece. How i wish now that i could tell someone, once broken, considered sold. But i am not an object for sale.
Being in the progress of picking up everything in life, i found myself getting tired easily. How i wish i could be the same old me, being able to calm down myself easily. Life has been stress. And i learnt not to complain but to accept.
Wishing to have a channel to voice out all my unhappiness, like what i did the last time by blogging.
Wishing that he is still the one that i would tell about all my sadness.
Wishing that we could communicate well like how we did last time.
*Sigh*
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right thing, right time.

now am listening to this song.
should start to feel sleepy and get to bed now, but somehow i just don't feel sleepy and tired.
my mind could not shut down.
am suppose to start to be nervous for my exam.
am suppose to study for my exam.
am suppose to, but am not doing the right thing.
i am always not doing the right thing at the right time.
i always ruined my life. DAMN.