today followed ah ann's car back to pg...
reached pg this afternoon around 5 stg...
went out for dinner at raffe...
i went for a drink only... coz i brought food back to eat...
had a small gathering...
those who went : jun huai, li ching, ah ann, pek imm, ah liang, ah keat, steven, juan see, yueh ching, hooi chuan, jessie, etc...
all the picts were taken using li ching's camera... will upload them once li ching send me all the picts...
it's 1.50 am now...
i am still blogging...
while waiting for the photos during cny and the gathering at AS to be uploaded...
listening to songs...
my feelings...
need to be managed again...
haiz...
don't know what to do tomorrow...
came back so early...
need to unpack my things... today didn't unpack yet... all the clothes are still in my bag...
tired...
sleepy...
2. i love fireworks ! - 3/2/09 , 12.50 am
tonight there were fireworks everywhere...
i can hear them loud !!
some can be seen from the window... some can't...
stay at second floor only... aiks...
and the fireworks not high enough...
i love fireworks !!
although my house don't have the tradition to pray during this day...
but i would look forward to this day...
coz there will be fireworks...
today whole day stay at home only...
online... play game... listen to songs...
what a boring life...
today a long lost friend, JW contacted me...
he was my tuition friend since primary... we went to the same tuition during secondary also...
we chatted through msn...
then he called me from s'pore... and we talked for almost 2 hours in a day... ear pain...
we talked about everything...
life in s'pore... places of interest in s'pore... studies... relationships... dramas... etc...
he told me to go s'pore for holiday... he will bring me go around... be my f.o.c tour guide... haha...
i am planning to go there for a holiday... maybe during dec... go there for christmas and new year countdown... but don't know my parents will allow me to go or not yet... hope they will let me go... coz i am kinda excited... after listening to the interesting places he told me... and the shopping malls there... i want to go there shop !!
i think we lost contact for almost 2 years d...
he said he just saw my e-mail address in friendster yesterday... swt... it was there since i created my friendster account...
chatted with su-yan just now...
we are going to play a game we used to play during secondary school time...
that is miss call each other before sleep and after wake up...
i think it was a game played before exam... coz we want to know till what time we studied and woke up start studying again... i think this was the reason we started the game...
it was a way to show our concern to each other also...
but i think last time it was me that always forgot to miss call her... haha...
hope i won't forget this time...
and we had a deal... to play this game till forever... haha... the one forget to miss call will have to treat the other a meal at spring leaf cafe and bali bali...
i suddenly feel now i really love to travel... within or outside m'sia...
let me see...
i really got plenty of plans...
now got new plans...
planning to go pulau redang before june...
planning to go hong kong and japan... not so soon...
hope i really get to go to all the places i listed down...
it's 2.20 am now...
have to go to bed d...
i promised MK tonight will sleep earlier...
haha.... tonight really sleep earlier than last night... last night slept at 3 stg almost 4... tonight 2 stg... i think he will ' kek si ' if i told him that... then he will scold me useless... haha...
3. Perfect Love - 3/2/09 , 1.49 pm
never say i love you
if you don't really care
never talk of feelings
if they aren’t really there
never hold my hand
if you mean to break my heart
never say forever
if you ever plan to part
never look into my eyes
if you are telling me a lie
never say hello
if you think you’ll say goodbye
never say that i’m THE one
if you dream of more than me
never lock up my heart
if you don't have the key
i learnt the hard way...
4. 不会有结果的八种爱情 - 3/2/09 , 1.54 pm
“时间可以改变一切！”这话不假，但是放在爱情里，你就得掂量掂量。 一、你在乎对方比较多 你在谈恋爱，却不确定对方的想法。你觉得你们很合适，她却好像不以为然；你总是主动去关心她，她却可以对你不闻不问；她不在时你很想她，你不在时她好像根本不在乎。这表示什么？ 二、你爱的是对方的潜力 你爱的是对方的潜力，而不是对方真正的样子，你爱的是对方未来可能的样子，那她根本不是你的伴侣，而是你改造的对象。 三、你想要帮助对方 你常觉得对方很可怜吗？你觉得自己有责任帮助对方振作起来吗？你会不会害怕如果离开对方，她会受不了打击？如果是，你恐怕是个“救难狂”。 四、把对方当作崇拜的对象 年轻的女明星爱上导演、大学生爱上教授、秘书爱上老板……，爱上所崇拜的对象，这种感情很难维持正常，因为两人之间无法平等对待。 五、你只是被对方外表吸引 每个人都会这样，对吗？如果你发现自己被对方的某个特质深深吸引，要问自己，若对方没有那双蓝色的大眼睛、磁性的声音……，若对方不是模特儿、不会打篮球……，我还会跟他(她)在一起吗？ 六、短暂朝夕相处的机会 你和对方分担某个工作，常常要一起加班，于是你觉得爱上了对方……。你去度假三周，认识一个也来度假的男人，你觉得好象坠入情网……。短暂的朝夕相处，是指在特殊情况下凑在一块，并不是常规，这种感情不能持久，因为短时间的朝夕相处，无法使你完全了解对方的个性。 七、为了叛逆才选择这对象 父母老是跟你强调，要找个有钱的对象，偏偏你每个男朋友都是穷光蛋；从小父母就对你管教严格，偏偏你每个女朋友都很随便；从小父亲就耳提面命，传香火是最重要的事，偏偏你的女朋友不是不能生，就是不想生…… 八、对方不是自由身 我把这点留到最后，是因为这根本不能算是感情。选择终身伴侣的第一个前提是——对方是“自由身”。“自由身”就是可以自由和你交往，没有结婚、没有订婚、没有固定的交往对象、没有和别人上床、单身，只和你交往的人。 |
5. 有种思念不叫爱情 - 3/2/09 , 1.58 pm
有一个女孩失恋了，她伤的很深很深，觉得整个世界都抛弃了她，甚至想到了死。她发誓这辈子再也不谈恋爱了。她把这个消息告诉了一个男孩，于是男孩开始不断 的安慰她，鼓励她，每天编好玩的短信逗她开心，在每个夜晚祝她晚安。就这样，女孩渐渐从痛苦中恢复过来，又变得和往日般活泼可爱。
男孩每天晚上依旧祝她晚安，如时钟般的准时，女孩就在这种祝福中平静的睡去。可是有一天，女孩没有收到他发来的短信，心里有一种莫名的失落和不安。她问自 己，是不是喜欢上了这个男孩。她想起了自己的誓言，开始努力强迫自己不去想他，但男孩的影子总是若隐若现的在脑海里飘来飘去。她觉得这种思念怪怪的，和原 来恋爱时的感觉不一样：当她恋爱时，那种思念就象火一样炽烈，不断的燃烧着，吞噬着自己的一切，占据了自己全部的灵魂，除了思念在也不能做任何事了；而现 在呢，她说不清，她从未感到还有这样一种思念是淡淡的，有点虚无但又无处不在，不需要付出什么却总能感到一种温情，就象在房间的角落里摆上了一束百合，淡 淡的幽香弥散了整个房间，却又不会让你刻意的去想，让你感到不自在。
女孩决心要弄明白。一天，男孩给她打电话问她最近过的开心么。聊着聊着，她突然问这个男孩为什么没有女朋友，要不要帮他介绍一个。她问的时候心跳的很快， 但又装出一副开玩笑的口气。男孩说好啊好啊。她不知道那来的勇气，突然说那就考虑一下我吧。电话那端沉默了好久，女孩觉得自己太冲动了，预感到自己好象要 毁掉什么似的。男孩终于开口了，说我们还是象这样做朋友的好。她不甘的又问为什么呢你不喜欢我什么地方。又是好久的沉默，然后，男孩用一种缓慢的口气，好 象要让每个字都沉进女孩的心里似的，说：“我担心，如果以后你再失恋了，会没有人再来安慰你了。"
眼泪止不住的流下来了，女孩终于明白了，有一种思念不是爱情.
这种思念是平和的，是温馨的，是不掺任何杂念的，没有任何专属味道，没有任何占有的意念。
女孩突然想起男孩曾经说过，这个世界只有三种颜色，红色，蓝色和绿色:
红色是冲动，是激情，是毁灭一切的力量；
蓝色是忧郁，是深刻，是沉沦一切的力量；
绿色是平和，是安逸，是抚慰一切的力量；
经过红色的爱情，蓝色的失恋，那么绿色的思念就是你最好的心灵鸡汤。
爱情的时间是多久，几个星期，几个月，还是几年？但不管多久，爱情总是会过期的。而这种思念呢，永远也不会过期。
超越了爱情和友情的感情，就是这种思念。
找一处心灵的港湾，你可以放心的去停泊。
找一个心灵的守护天使，永远不会迷失自我。
当你找到了，你就是世界最幸福的人
6. can't survive without internet !! - 4/2/09 , 5.39 pm
yesterday got no internet to use...
damn...
my life nowadays became so boring...
and useless KH din go pay internet bill... made my life more boring yesterday... don't know what to do... just can sit in front of my laptop listen to songs... haiz... life is so damn boring without internet...
luckily today can access the internet d...
i can't live without internet !!
slept late last night too... was on the phone with JW till around 2 am...
luckily today's class was in the afternoon...
if not sure can't wake up d...
i am going out soon...
going kek lok si...
can go take plenty of picts...
this saturday going again...
going with different group of friends...
i think i might only go home this sunday... can i don't go home?
but i am not going home next weekend also... or maybe i can go home on next sunday also?
gtg... will continue to blog when i come back later...
7. kek lok si 4/2/09 - 5/2/09 , 1.12 am
back from kek lok si... took a few picts only... will take more on saturday...hope the saturday plan is on...
the guan yin statute...
jin siew & me...
siew yun, jin siew & me...
with siew ying...
with siew yun...' HAPPY cny '
siew ying said to me... and she stressed the word ' happy '...
' 单身快乐 '
i replied her...
and i said a lot of times d tonight...
coz she is facing the same problem as me...
we were planning to go out together during valentine's day...
don't know what's their plans yet...
hope i am not lonely this coming valentine's day...
单身快乐
i told su-yan too...
she asked me back ' you happy? '
i said ' happy... just not as happy as being in a relationship... '
they are different kind of happiness...
happy or not life still moves on...
i chose to be happy...
coz i feel it's time to be happy d...
i think i had suffered enough...
i felt there's no point feeling sad anymore... although sometimes i am still thinking about the same thing over and over again...
i know i will get over this soon...
it's just a matter of time...
i keep searching for my happiness... coz i thought i lost it somewhere... then i realised actually it was beside me all the time... it was just me that chose to ignore it...
i'll smile more...
i told myself...
i suddenly thought of what JW told me the other day...
he said i can be a really good gf...
i doubt what he said...
i think i lost confidence in myself...
he told me not to think the way i am thinking...
what he said make sense... and really made me feel better...
i guess... besides happiness... i need to gain back my confidence too...
it's 2.40 am...
time to sleep...
sweet dreams...
8. 5/2/09 - 6/2/09 , 1.34 am
went to class in the afternoon...
i started to feel bored in P1 class...
i started to day dream in the class...
i started to have the feeling of wanting to skip class...
but i know this is wrong...
so i told myself no matter what also i will go to class and try to concentrate in class...
results are coming out soon...
i think my results won't be good...
i know i will fail...
coz i did badly during the exam...
it will be just as badly as i did for the june exam last year...
the timing was so not right for both the exams...
why problems were there when i was about to take my exams?
why can't they happen earlier or after my exam?
why must they happened right before my exams when i was preparing so hard for my exams...
why they happened to distract me before my exams?
praying hard that i really can pass my exams this time...
* praying praying praying *
but i am glad that nothing is going to happen like before during this coming june exam...
so i can concentrate on my studies...
nothing is going to affect my mood anymore...
went to redbox after class...
had buffet dinner there...
told my mom about my plan to celebrate christmas and new year countdown at s'pore this coming dec... she allowed me to go... unexpectedly...
going to watch 'inkheart' this coming tues...
planning to watch 'bride wars' also... dated ah ann d...
haiz... my sunrise plan... how come left two ppl going only?
useless roomate... doesn't want to celebrate valentine's day with me... haiz...
ah ann... ya right... i am talking about u... useless...
it's 2.40 am...
time to sleep...
9. 7/2/09 kek lok si again - 8/2/09 , 1.23 am
went to buy mouse at techsurf before we went for dinner somewhere around ayer itam...
my new mouse...tonight went to kek lok si again...
went with MK, ah ann, hui see and pei seng...
we walked up there... swt... i thought we will go up by car... so i wore high heels there... torturing myself again... i want to buy new shoes !!
at first we wanted to go up there by car... but after much consideration... plus the long queue... we decided to park the car at an open space and walked up... it would be faster than we waited for the long queue...
there was a minor accident on the way to kek lok si... pei seng banged a motorcyclist... omg... all of us got a shock... luckily that aunty was fine... and the bike was still in good condition... the aunty was so nice that she said she was ok and asked us to leave...
we took around 170 photos... two cameras... my camera and MK's camera...
edited by me...
me & the dragon...
cute...
me...
with ah ann and hui see...
writing our wishes on the ribbon...
my name...
with MK and ah ann...
with hui see...
the five of us...i was suffering from leg pain when we walked down from kek lok si... high heels... haiz...
after that we went for supper... had duck rice... the famous duck rice at ayer itam...
there was jam on the way back to our house too... and it was around 12.30 am d... there were still many cars on the road... and most of them were indians... going for thaipusum celebration i suppose...
MK reached home at 4 am in the morning... coz of the jam at the bridge... pity him only... didn't get to reach home earlier...
had a great time... tired... but fun...
10. 10/2/09 - 10/2/09 , 2.26 pm
recently slept quite late at night... used to sleeping late at night...
will only go to sleep when i feel really very tired... tired enough to fall asleep once i went to bed... coz i don't want to lie on the bed doing nothing and start to think nonsense... this will be worst and make myself can't sleep well...
su-yan scolded me for sleeping so late at night... i know it's not good to sleep so late... i'll try to sleep earlier... i promise...
valentine's day is coming...
this year going to celebrate alone...
although morning going to watch sunrise... but afternoon and night still no plan yet...
going to feel lonely this coming valentine's day...
it's hard to get someone who loves you and you love that someone too...
i once told him...
i suppose he has forgotten about what i've said before...
but never mind... it's not important anymore...
sometimes i feel i am stupid...
to think about him again and again...
i know it's not worth thinking.... but i just can't stop thinking...
these few days i am feeling depressed again...
maybe valentine's day is coming...
i am just a bit worried that i cannot control my tears...
coz i can feel them in my eyes...
a friend asked me two days ago... will i still want to be in a relationship anymore?
i don't know...
i just know that now i feel very tired...
i don't want to think anymore...
i am scared that i will feel hurt again...
i know love is not how much you give in then how much you will get...
love cannot be judged...
love is just a feeling... only felt...
i was just a fool... the first time i felt hurt i told myself i would love him less so when he hurt me the second time i won't be hurt so badly...
i don't know i felt hurt for how many times... but i know after i felt hurt the first time... i didn't love him less...
i am stupid... i know...
i should have know how to protect myself...
it was an experience...
a good experience to prove what i said was right before we were together...
i once said i shouldn't judge every guy to be the same...
but i proved myself wrong...
or maybe is my luck not that good?
now i know why he wanted to be single back...
being single you don't have to consider too much if friends ask you out...
can do anything you want...
can go anywhere...
no need to report every minute everyday...
have the freedom to mix with the friends you like...
can go out with friends of opposite sex... without worrying him or her will get jealous...
it's 2.40 am now...
my tears insist to come out from my eyes... and i can't do anything about it...
listening to the song again and again doesn't help much...
maybe i should stop blogging...
maybe i should leave as soon as possible...
just now i removed a few readers from my blog...
one of them is him...
left three readers can read my blog only...
have to say sorry to those i removed...
i just don't want them to know i am still so sad...
i want them to see the happy me only...
let me bare the sadness my own...
i'll be fine... i keep telling myself...
it's 3 am now...
i should go to bed now...
11. s.0.s - 10/2/09 , 6.53 pm
haiz...
don't know why now cannot post comment in my blog...
the settings are correct...
but still...
argh....
someone... help me !!
12. 11/2/09 second baby nephew - 12/2/09
11 Feb is my second bro's birthday...
and it will be his son birthday too...
my second sis-in-law had safely delivered baby nephew on 11/2/09 at 10.40 am...
baby's name will be lee yong pin...
will upload the picture soon...
13. 13/2/09 - 13/2/09 , 8.46 pm
today went out lunch with ah xian...
she is moving back to our house... be our roomate in march...
after that we went prangin mall...
bought one shirt...
actually planned to go buy present for sin pei...
but ended up i bought things for myself...
i should stop buying things d...
but my mood still not that good...
Lee Ming Yee !! mood not good cannot always buy things and spend money... i'll remember that...
14. Valentine's - 20/2/09 , 12.48 am
it's been almost a week i did not update my blog...
haha... ah ann... thanks for reminding me that i did not update my blog...
i was too busy watching drama... too lazy to update my blog...
i'll briefly tell what i actually did in this one week... what happen to me... and so on...
14/2/09
valentine's day... this year valentine's day was quite a special one... coz i celebrated with friend and cousins...
went to watch sunrise.. woke up at 5 stg... thanks to alston for waking up so early and fetch me... luckily my sunrise plan did work...
afternoon went to gurney with sin pei and siao li... went for a movie titled 'Look For A Star' starring andy lau and shu qi... was quite a nice movie to watch...
walked to gurney... one word to describe... HOT !
was at gurney till 10 stg... waited for kean hooi to finish work for the acer fair... helped them to pack things for a while too...
luckily we walked back... coz it was so jam around gurney... the cars all were not moving... walk is faster than drive...
although for the past 2 years i celebrated with him... and this is the 1st valentine i celebrated without him... back to single... i did not feel sad or depressed... indeed i felt happy... i also don't know why i felt it that way...
maybe coz my sunrise plan did work... or maybe...... hehe... anyway... i felt happy on this day...
16/2/09
my dec sitting exam results came out today...
i felt so disappointed with myself...
this was the 1st time i felt this way...
i worked so hard for my exam, much harder than previous exam... but i failed my exam...
i failed all the papers i took... i cried... coz i ruined my exam...
after dinner, went to island coffee with ah ann, irene and kean hooi... it was my first time there... a very nice place to hang around... love the place...
double summer...17/2/09
i've decided to go kl... a sudden decision...
15. Random - 28/2/09 , 1.15 pm
aarggh... this stupid blog.. don't know what's wrong with it... still cannot post comments...
btw... i am going to create a new blog... and don't worry... i'll paste all the posts in this blog to the new blog... i am NOT willing to delete everything in this blog without making a copy of it...
it's been almost one week i last updated the blog... haha... busy packing my things... too many things d... so many boxes... omg... didn't realise i've got so so so many things...
i am going to kl alone this monday... taking bus by myself... my first time... quite excited about it... haha...
can go have a look on my cute little nephew... aaw... he looked so cute in the pictures... can't wait to see him...
going to be in kl for almost 2 weeks or more... so... i will not update my blog till i come back from kl... by that time my blog will be covered with dust... haha...
anyway... that's all for now... when i come back i hope i'll be start blogging in the new blog...
let my blog enjoy a nice and long holiday too : )
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