angry

yes. i am angry.
i am damn angry.

i am not HER.
NOT NOT NOT and NOT!!!!
please don't compare me with HER ok?
i don't like to be thought like that.
to be precise, i HATE to be thought like that.
because i am NOT.
i am NOT that type of person.
and i am not going to be like that.
i am just not that type of person.

tell me.
please tell me.
how should i keep on?
what should i do?
should i hold on?
or should i let it go?

i hate having this kind of feeling.
i hate it when i needed to consider letting go of something i don't want to without trying hard enough.
but i am confused.
i don't know how hard should i try further.
i don't know how to measure if i have tried hard enough.
i just don't know.
i don't know how long should i try.

i don't know if this will work out well.
i know it won't work well if i am the only one that is trying.

haiz.
i just don't want to think anymore.
i am tired.